The biggest obstacle to planning your future is not fear, nor indecisiveness, nor lack of commitment.
It is not having a chair tall enough for your desk.
This realization makes me a little concerned about my levels of grit and determination. I do not have to walk three miles for clean water, nor do I have cross a gorge on a rickety bridge to get to school. I simply have to stack a yoga mat, four placemats, used gym clothes, a backpack, and a blanket to reach staggering new heights – i.e., to rest my elbows on the table while typing.
I am feeling very empowered because I am reading Lean In by Sheryl Sandberg, and after Chapter 1 (“The Leadership Ambition Gap”) I have already solved a seating problem that has dogged me for five months, and I have made popcorn IN A POT. I danced around the kitchen to the dull dings of the kernels bouncing about the pot. I was elated.
And it is times like these where I think my life is a farce.
If you’re asking why so serious?, it’s because Molly talked to her parents. This isn’t the first time this has transpired; nay, this is but a new episode in a series. After a lapse of x-number of months, I know to expect a thorough inspection of my life’s ambitions and plans. A “State of the Molly.”
It’s a good thing. I think.
I have been putting off and putting off confronting my next life step. First I blamed it on not having a functioning computer charger for two months. Then I blamed it on not having a functioning desk (hence today’s triumph). I feel like I am at the top of one of the staircases at Hogwarts: the choices for my next step swivel in and out of play. The staircases will briefly connect at some point – there’s a path to get somewhere – but how am I to choose even a staircase if I don’t know my final destination?
It’s time to whole-heartedly pursue this mystery destination. So I’ll start with the question posited by Ms. Sandberg (or really by the book Who Moved My Cheese?…whose title in and of itself rivals the following question):
What would you do if you weren’t afraid?
8 thoughts on “State of the Molly”
“the choices for my next step swivel in and out of play.” LOVE this imagery, Molly! And mucha suerte on figuring out where those staircases will connect!
Ha! Thanks Trevor, it’s amazing how applicable Harry Potter is to real life. I appreciate it, I can use all the suerte you can throw me, haha. Hope all is well with you Trevor!!
Sometimes the first step is the hardest. But it helps me to remember that once a path is begun-I am not forever locked in that direction. I take it as long as it meets my needs but am continually open to new directions or even side trips from which I can, and do, return to the main path.
That’s so true! The first step always seems so pivotal though. But it’s a good reminder that you can veer off the path and even retrace your steps if need be 🙂
You can do any and all of it, Molls. May the force be with you! Xo
Thank you Señorita Katherine 🙂
Forgive me for spamming your blog haha, missing you lots Molly! This post resonates so much with me, sending good vibes your way always chica ❤
Spamming? As if 🙂 Thanks for reading! Miss you too Bilan, and hope London is treating you oh so well!